Well, folks: it's time for my I-dunno-what-to-write-about-so-I'll-write-about-the-weather entry.
Every year, when summer ends, I begin preparation for winter. (Let's face it: Autumn lasts all of two weeks.) This year, said preparation is even more imperative as I am living away from all of my known loved ones and am no longer living with anyone. it's been a minute. But honestly, I'm looking forward to it because I no longer feel as though I must take care of anyone else. Just me. I get sick: I take care of me. I don't have energy after work: no one is sapping me dry. If I'm dealing with a hard day, it is only my hard day. The more I consider it, the more I am compelled to simply live on my own for all of eternity.
So far, I have my usual suspects:
- My plants are surrounding me. And even if some of them die, there are plenty to still go around.
- I have been keeping up well on daily / weekly cleaning / laundry and everything has a place.
- The yoga mat and cycle bike are out and ready to be used.
- I am planning one last deep clean before the first snow.
- My credit card (until I get my snow tires) is in good condition.
- I've got books to read and sudoku / puzzles to do.
- I'm eating well / drinking water / sleeping / taking vitamins.
- Jasper is clean with a clean bill of health.
I'm sure there are more, but nobody even asked me to compile this list, so I'll stop it there. In addition to the tools already in my arsenal, I have brainstormed a few more. This cold season I am going to attempt one new thing for each of my five senses:
- Jazz Hour (while either cleaning or while the lights are dim / cozy and I'm reading / journaling).
- A focus on lighting, while still not spending a billion dollars on "fairy lights"/faux daylight.
- Incense & holder (in "NAG CHAMPA", the scent that most reminds me of the record store my bff and I met at / used to work at together).
- A focus on skincare (essentially: moisturizer all over my skin, as I am 34).
- Researching at least 3 new recipes for myself. I feel amazing when I cook. I love experiments. The food I make is good. Why am I not doing this already?
Now, obviously, this is all gravy in theory, but what about in practice?
...What about it?
The name of the game in all of this is not to win or lose. Already, coming up with any kind of idea is the absence of failure. I have already succeeded. The game is complete. Now it's simply about trying like hell to combat S. A. D. I realize I am already playing a losing game; there is no need to add stakes / pressure.
They say it is important to keep in touch with people during the cold season. Perhaps I can write letters to my mother / bff this year. Just something dumb that might make them happy for a minute.
Alright. I wish I had anything else to write about but - let's face it - this wasn't even anything to write about. But! Feeling the keys under my hungry little fingers is a huge way to combat bad feelings / keep me afloat in general. So... Get used to the decline this blog is on. You think it couldn't get any worse / more vapid / more of a verbal processing / stream of consciousness. Just you wait.
Full disclosure: there's been a very fun, distracting podcast in the background this entire time and I have found it incredibly distracting. So I'm not even fully convinced any of the above was even English.
...The word "September" doesn't even look right.
